how to get sleep easily tonight

Hi there.

Some how I decided to go bed earlier than usual.

I sneaked into my bed 10pm.

I cannot believe this.

But guess what.

since I'm writing this diary,

Which means I'm still awake.

I closed my eyes 1 hour in my bed without touching my smartphone.

My heart was beating badly.

I could heard it with my bones.

It because I was waiting for someone's calling. Still no calling at the moment.

Sunny beautiful spring day went well till the evening when my friend told me about "it".

It's not her fault. I even thank for her making my day sparkling trying out bouldering together.

I had to make "it" clear and get it back to my hand. It's about one of my missing goodies. I was wating for it almost a  half year.

So I decided to text him to call me.

We chatted about it and even I made it clear about it. I wasn't ok.

I'm here now. Still awake in warm bed.

I tried to rinse it off and went shower right after phone call. I even washed my clothes during it. Because I'm the only one who takes  care my temper and myself.

What else I can do to erase these uncomfortable feelings.

I don't even know I should erase it or anything I can do for it. I just feeling not good I want more for him to care about me and  do for it something.

Oh my messy writing.

Here I spilled it.

Hopefully there is some spelling to get over it.

Good night night.

Tomorrow will be fine.

It just happened in 1 hour.

It'll be gone.

Bye.